Day One- Doing it Right Challenge

Today went alright. I was much more busy and rushed than I thought I would be, so that messed up my planning a bit. But, it was definitely much better than I have been doing. I went to a Mary Kay party at my friend's house and that was the biggest fail of the day. Calorie wise, I think I did alright today, but I basically wasted my lunch on snacks at the party. I think finger food and stuff like that is one of my biggest challenges.
As far as eating clean goes, I did okay. Not perfect, but much less processed than I have been eating. Progress is what is important to me. As long as every day (or at least almost every day) is a little bit better than the day before that, then I feel like I am accomplishing something.
Im so excited for the benefits of this new lifestyle. I went a whole day without feeling any symptoms of my IBS and didnt feel bloated at all (even after the snacking, haha).
Im still working on the no soda thing. I always cave with diet drinks, because I make the excuse that it's not compromising my weight loss, which is really bullshit.

Anyway, I really feel inspired and excited still. I think part of it is keeping yourself excited. For me that means a lot of reading materials and documentaries on netflix, lol. I need to go to the library and stock up on some nutrition books to peruse.

Speaking of Nutrition, Im really excited to start my new semester at school. I am taking Community Nutrition and Food and Culture in the US. Im super excited about the second one. Hopefully these classes will also help keep me inspired.

Hope everyone is having a good week. If you still read this, let me know please. Sometimes I feel like Im talking to myself, haha. Even if I am, I suppose it doesnt really matter. It helps me stay motivated, and that's the important part.

Excitement

I am totally on fire for weight loss. For a long time I have wanted to start easing myself into a "clean" diet. I read Tosca Reno's "The Eat Clean Diet" about 7 months ago and fell in love with it, but have not been financially stable enough until recently to do it. I am not completely following what she recommends, only because I am trying to take baby steps towards it. I dont want to overwhelm myself and cause myself to fail.
I am also doing a challenge on youtube with one of my yt friends, which includes eating a much less processed diet. I plan on at least eating 2 clean meals of the day, and really striving to completely be clean, but that's for another challenge, lol.
I feel passionate and on fire for weight loss again. I feel amazing and like anything is possible for me. I know I am capable of doing this. I want this. Not just for weight loss, but I love the idea of clean eating. It's what we were meant to do. Humans were not made to eat processed crap. I have been having some health issues the past couple of years and Im convinced a lot of it is because of my terrible diet.

Anyway, I am ridiculously excited to see how this next month goes. Ill try to update as often as I can.

Thanks to anyone who is still reading this thing =DD

Food Blogging?

When I first started this blog I was using it to record what i had eaten each day. I think I will probably be starting to do that again soon. Even if no one is reading this, I know it will still help me to put this out there. On August 1st I will be starting a new challenge on my youtube channel, While I obviously havent started my non processed challenge yet, I am doing a bit better than I have been the last couple months.

Speaking of the challenge, I will basically be attempting to eating 75% non processed foods each day. I know it is unrealistic for me to think I can dive into this and go all the way with it, so I am taking some small steps. Find me on youtube (LindseyBrooke27) if you wanna join along with me and my fellow youtuber, BlessedMommy21. If you wanna join please make a response to one of our videos, they should be up by Friday. =D

So far today I have eaten the following:

1 cup Rice Krispies with less than 1/2 cup of 1 % milk

Sante Fe and Rice Smart Ones meal

1 snickerdoodle cookie

That's all so far! Ill update later!

Change.

I really need to make some changes, and not just so that I can lose weight. For the past couple of months I have mainly maintained. I did manage to get to 159, but I feel HORRIBLE. I have been eating shit. There's no other way to describe it other than that. Just complete shit.
My body is reacting in a lot of terrible ways. My acne is acting up, my stomach is bloated to hell (even though Im the same weight), Im tired ALL the time even after sleeping for hours, and Im just generally feeling depressed. And its ALL because of the food. It really is. Its really amazing how much of an affect it can have on you.
I want to just eat natural things. Im sick of this crap I am putting into my body. knowing me, I probably will not go completely natural ever, because I just dont have the time to devote to it. But I am going to be making a real effort this time. Its time to get to basics. I need this. I dont want to feel pulled down by chemicals and crap anymore. I want to feel clean, which is going to be a huge change for me. I grew up on a standard american diet, and it has definitely carried over into my adult life. I have to do this. I dont want to keep hurting my body and being miserable.

Its time to make a change. For real this time.

Getting Motivated again..

For the past month I have really been slacking off. I had birthdays and moving and now I am FINALLY feeling that motivation that I needed SO badly. I am making meal plans, grocery lists, and catching up on my youtube videos. Im going to get my weekly weigh ins going again both here and on my channel. Im ready to get back on track. I feel so unhealthy right now. I not only feel like I have gained fat back, but I feel sluggish and maybe even a tad bit depressed. Its been a hectic month. I quit my job, and finally found a new one, but its taking forever to finalize everything, so I have been depending on my parents for money, so I have not been able to get groceries that I want. I am finally moved into my new town house and I LOVE it. Its beautiful! Anyway, I hope to start working sometime this week, and hopefully start returning my life to normal soon.
More updates soon!

Picking myself back up again.

Like I thought, I gained this week. However, I did not even begin to think I would gain as much as i did.
3.2 lbs.
I am horrified. And honestly, I dont think it was all a legitimate gain. I did not eat THAT badly and my stomach was messed up from my IBS.
Anyway, I just feel like a failure sort of. Ive been doing this since December. WTF.
And honestly, a lot of it has to do with how damn broke I am. Seriously, I take all blame and responsibility for this, but I believe my money situation is half the issue.
I have not gone to the grocery in 3 weeks (maybe more) and have no food. So, I ate out a lot. I broke my ff challenge and ate out. And Im really disappointed about that. But I just didnt know what to do.
So, Im changing my circumstances. I am applying for nanny jobs for the summer and hopefully will be making a LOT more money doing that. I may still work at my lame theatre job for some extra cash. but I dont know. I honestly really hate that place.
I really think that having enough money will help. I know that I have to take responsibility for the other part of it, but I really know myself and know that if I had more options and more healthy foods I would be doing a lot better.
Im re weighing in again tomorrow (mainly for my peace of mind so I dont beat myself up about this all week) and I will repost on here. Maybe I am in denial, but Im 90% sure that I am not 3 damn pounds heavier.

Anyway, better news next time I hope =/

Why do we always want to defeat ourselves?

What is going on??
Last week I lost another 1.4 lbs. I was SO excited to lost significantly two weeks in a row. When I made my weigh in video I expressed my concern that I might ruin it.
And I am currently in the process of doing so.
I have been off plan and eating not great things almost every day. Maybe my body will be nice to me and maintain. Maybe it wont.
In the past, I have given up at points like this. In the past I would have thought "This is too hard, Im taking a break" and then I would regain everything I had lost plus more.
That is in the past. It ended there. That person who gave up and decided that settling was okay is GONE. She doesnt exsist anymore.
This is FAR from over. Even if I (GOD forbid) gained back 7 lbs on Saturday, I will NOT feel defeated. I will pick myself back up and start again.
This is what I want. I will fight for it and I will NOT let it get me again.
I just dont understand why we let ourselves do this? I saw it coming and I STILL let it happen. Maybe I am being too hard on myself. Maybe I will lose. But if I do I wont feel like I deserve it.

Im going ot run on the treadmill tomorrow and get back on track. I owe it to myself. I deserve this happiness. I deserve to be healthy.