Weight Watchers Weigh in #2

I recently joined WW again. I weighed in on Saturday and had gained 1 lb. =/
Im not too disappointed since its the end of the holidays. Im glad to have only gained 1 lb over the Holidays!
Im so ready to get back to "normal" life. I know it will be much easier to stay on plan now and I am excited to start losing again!
Right now my laptop is broken and that will make it difficult for me to post my vlogs on youtube (LindseyBrooke27 if you havent subbed yet! lol) and to blog here. But, hopefully I can post what I ate each day.

Officially on YOUTUBE!

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Soon to be on YouTube????

My roomie and I are starting a channel. Its not completely weight loss, but I think I will be doing weigh ins, grocery hauls, and all of that awesome stuff.
Im so excited. I've wanted to do this since I first discovered the weight loss community on YouTube back in January.
Anyway, our Channel name is GreenlandGirls. There isnt anything up yet, but there will be soon. I will of course notify once we actually post something.
EXCITED!!!!

Also, no food pics for this week. I brought my camera with me to my apartment (I live at my apartment during the week and at my parent's house on the weekends) and apparently the batteries are out. Since I dont have money, I cant get any, lol.

Days 1,2 & 3

Day One
Tuesday

I've been waking up really late the past few days and did not eat breakfast, so by the time I got back from class I was starving. I sometimes have a disastrous habit of throwing together weird concoctions.
So I threw into a pot some potatoes, mixed vegetables, onion, and pasta and then covered it in pasta sauce.


It was okay, but nothing fantastic.

I had a lot of sweet cravings all day so I finally ate a Mini Moon Pie. It was actually only 120 calories.


For Dinner I decided to make myself a massive salad. I actually ended up just eating it out of the mixing bowl I prepared it in, lol.
It consisted of romaine lettuce, spinach, chick peas, cucumbers, and tomatoes. I used light ranch dressing.

It was pretty good, and I managed to eat most of it.

Later that night, I got the urge to eat some sugary cereal. Normally I try not to keep it around but my friend came over a week or two ago and left her "Envirokidz" version of cocoa pebbles. I actually liked them a lot better than the original.


Forgive me for not having the calorie counts for this week. I have them on my Ipod, but Im about to fall asleep at the moment, haha.

Day 2
Wednesday

Breakfast:
Had One Cup of Honey Bunches of Oats with Almonds and One cup 1% milk

Lunch


Dinner
This was actually one of the best things I have made lately. It's just a chicken breast cut up with mushrooms, caramelized onions, and wild rice. Also steamed veggies with smart balance on top. This meal was so filling and savory. I loved it.


Day 3
Thursday

Breakfast:
Honey Bunches of Oats again

Lunch:
Basically what I made for dinner the night before minus the rice and plus zucchini. Pretty good but not as good as before.


Dinner:
I didnt really have dinner per se. I intended to go see Toy Story 3D with friends and have some popcorn. Instead we ended up at Starbucks where I got one of the absolute WORST things I could have gotten; a tall strawberries and cream frapp.
To make matter worse, my friends were both set on getting pizza. Since I didnt have any money on me, I had to take what I was being given, lol.
I had two pieces of cheese pizza from Pizza Hut.

I also had regular coke today. I kinda failed towards the end of the day.

Oh, well. They do say you gotta keep your metabolism guessing, right?? =/ lol

Day #1

I planned on posting a nice post with pics of everything I ate today but photobucket, flickr, and tiny pic all wont load my pics. Ill catch up tomorrow. Sorreh.

Long Time No Blog.....

So....my weight loss has been at a standstill for about two months now and I am just done with having to look at the same stupid number on the scale.
I started a birth control again and I think some of it is because of that, but I am not trying. I have been binging every now and then, and just generally making bad decisions. Im going to try really really hard to take pics of my meals to help me stay accountable. Its just a matter of remembering to carry my camera with me!

Anyway, tomorrow is going to be Day 1 of my starting over. I want to get rid of some more weight before the dreaded holidays kick in.

Stay tuned for tomorrow....

Gained Two Pounds

Ugh. I think I really derailed myself when I was on my period. Its not a huge deal, but Im doing this SO slowly and taking steps backwards is NOT okay with me.
I have to change. I HAVE to do better. I will NOT see the 170's again. Its not happening! I wont let it!
Here I come fat, go get your damn armor, cause this is war.

Some of Today's Food

This is a typical lunch for me. I REALLY need something to replace my chips. For some reason I really feel like I need to have them but they are pretty bad on points. Oh well. Maybe some pretzels?



And now for midnight snacking...

Found these at trader joe's today. 2 1/2 cups are 140 calories or 3 ww pts.


And then some garbanzo beans. I love these things.

Struggling Again...

I just cant seem to pull myself together this week. Im just really doing terribly. I feel disgusting and bloated and I just generally feel gross. I can blame some of that on "Aunt Flo" but I know some of it is my own doing. Im SO scared to gain my weight back. It took me FOREVER to lose 10 lbs, I refuse to gain it back!
Anyway, hopefully I can start over tomorrow successfully. Im ready to feel good again

It's been a while.

Im making slow progress, but at least I havent taken any steps backwards.

Right now I am at 162.4. So, Ive offically lost over 10 lbs and I can finally feel it on my body. My work pants are falling off! Its weird how all of the sudden one day you feel the weight fall off! I hadnt felt any skinnier until now. Im really gonna start locking this stuff down. Im happy to be making progress, but I want to make progress a little faster than I have been. Im gonna start working out more and cracking down on my diet.
Im also going to be taking a nutrition class at school this semester and if I like it enough I may change my major. Who knows? =)

Anyway, I really still wanna update this more often with pics and stuff. Life just got way too busy.

Official WW weigh in #1

Monday morning I weighed in at 165.2. Which is a loss of 1.2 from last week. Soooo happy!
Today I actually worked out! I jogged and walked on the treadmill for thirty minutes. Im sure to the average person what I did would have been no big deal, but I havent done anything in SO long. I was sweating like crazy. Its totally true that working out and being active makes you happy. I still have those endorphins going on!
More later!

Starting Weight Watchers Again..

Ive decided to start counting points again. Calorie counting was sort of working, but I like WW better. Anyway, today I went with my future roommate to go pay our down payment on our new apartment. I got up late and had no breakfast, so I indulged in a Large Coke at McDonalds for 6 points. Holy god!! lol. Anyway, went to her house and had some soup she has called "Monster Soup" which is basically a vegtable soup. I guesstimated 3 points for it and has a 100 calorie Bagel for 1 point.
We went and attended to our business in the boro (Where I go to school. Its an hour away from where I live.) Eventually we went to Panera and I got the pick two and got half greek salad for 5.5 points, a french baguette for 3 points and their summer corn chowder for 5 points. So that total meal was 13.5 points. But, I am still really full and I think it keep me satisfied for a while. Plus, my daily points target is 26 points, so I have a little left for a snack of friuts and veg later.

Also started a weekly meeting type deal with some of my close friends where we talk about weight loss and our plans. Should be pretty cool =)

New Book

Has anyone else read Eat this and Live! by Don Colbert? I got it the other night and read it in about an hour. I love it!! Its so colorful and honest. Its definitely inspired me. I actually preferred it over skinny bitch.

A couple weeks ago I also got this AMAZING food and fitness journal off of target.com. It is called the "diet and fitness journal"(go figure lol) by Claudine Gandolfi. Its really neat.

Anyway, I suppose for once I will blog my foods.

Today I forgot to go to the atm and decided I didnt want to charge 3 dollars to my account. So I had no lunch or breakfast =/

Around 12 I had some popcorn (work, ugh) for about 200 calories and had a regular coke for 200 cals ( I drank some throughout the day, Im over estimating, but oh well)

I went out with my family to a local coffee shop that was doing an Italian Night. We made reservations and it was a kind of suprise meal. We didnt really know what we were getting.
It ended up being a 4 course meal. It was a nice treat and Im glad I had it, even though it left me at around 1000 calories.
First we had Minestrone Soup (about 150) and bread (250). I suck at the "say no to the bread bowl" thing, lol. Then they brought out some salad with an italian dressing ( 50 cals).
After a while our main course came out and it ended up being a portion of lasagna and chicken florentine. It was just two small-ish servings of each and I left a bit of my lasagna but ate most of the chicken. I looked them up on thedailyplate.com and got an estimation of around 430 calories in all for both.

They then brought out cheesecake (aka the devil, lol). I ate about half. Im guessing around 300 calories?

There was a lot of guess work, but thats alright I suppose. I can allow one huge meal a week.

I plan to get on here more and become more dedicated. I think Im going to do my official weigh ins on mondays now. Not sure though.

Busy Busy

Since summer has started Ive been working a ton. I havent made time to update this. =/
Anyway, Ive been logging my food and adding up my cals. Ive been doing okay, but I am not expecting any major loss. I want to start going to the park and walking and riding my bike more. I really like it and it burns some calories. Anyway, Ill try to update this more. Id like to add pictures and stuff like mostly everyone else does, but I never seem to have my camera with me. We'll see, perhaps I will put my meals up that way.
I dunno.

Gaining.

Its not my official weigh in day, but I cant help but be discouraged. Granted I just got off my period today, but it still does not feel good to see my scale go up 4 freaking pounds.
I really need to go to the doctor. My body is not digesting correctly and I think that may also be a part of the recent weight gain. I was a vegetarian for the past 2 1/2 years and I think the recent addition of meat back into my diet has thrown my body through a loop. Its pretty much freaking out. I think chicken is okay though, so Im gonna stick to that.
Anyway, Im gonna talk to the doctor. Im just having a lot of problems with my stomach and digestion and Im in a lot of discomfort. Sorry for the TMI, but I feel that it is affecting my weight loss in some way right now.
Anyway, Im going shopping for groceries again soon and Im going to try and be better about updating this.

Groceries. <3

I wanted to take pics of everything I got but it would have taken forever. This is basically what I got:

2 bags of sliced apples

grapes

bagged spring mix

Vinaigrette spray dressing

Hansen's soda (Strawberry and Peach)

Pellegrino

cheese straws (not great, I know. but I figured one treat wouldnt hurt)

Jolly ranchers ( sounds bad, but I carry a few in my purse to have when I have
cravings)

ww string cheese

fruit leathers (yum)

2 lemons ( for the Pellegrino)

whole wheat pasta

Celery Hearts

Weight Control Quaker Oatmeal

Yoplait strawberry yogurt


There was probably more, but I cant really remember, lol.
Anyway, real excited. I loooove grocery shopping.

Groceries TOMORROW.

This is getting ridiculous. There is NOTHING in my house to eat. My parents have gotten lazy and keep putting off the grocery. I get paid tomorrow so, I am for sure going to the grocery. I need good foods to eat. Not this crap I have been eating.

I slept in real late as usual and skipped bfast. My friend and I went to Pei Wei and I had chicken with fried rice and a spring roll as well as 3 fortune cookies. Top that off with a coke and I started my day off kinda badly. Oh well, I suppose I didnt gorge myself. I didnt eat the HUGE effing bowl they gave me.

Anyway later on my dad made the last thing left in our freezer, which was pizza. (GAH) I had 2 pieces of pizza.

Later I went over to my boyfriend's house and had a snack size bag of Doritos and one little ferrero rocher chocolates.

Anyway, now I am just sipping on some sparkling water and hopefully that will be all for the day. Things are going to be going much better after I go to the grocery. Maybe Ill do a blog version of a grocery haul, thatd be fun =)

I went to babysit today and had to make do with what was around me. Could have been worse U suppose.
Breakfast? (kind of)

Coke - ( 12oz) 155 (EMPTY ugh) calories
VERY tiny piece of coffee cake maybe 100 cals at most

Lunch

Tortilla wrap with turkey and shredded cheese
145 cals (wrap)
70 cals (turkey)
100 cals (Cheese)

chips - 130 cals

Sweet Tea - 130 cals

Snack

One slice of american cheese - 50 cals

Got home around 7 and ate. At around 12 I got hungry for some reason and made a sandwich. I really couldnt afford the calories though. =(

Dinner

Grilled Chicken breast- 200 cals estimate
Corn - 100 cals
Broccoli - 30 cals
Pasta - 200

Munchies (GAH)

Turkey on wheat bread -
130 cals turkey
140 cals bread

Tortilla Chips - 200 cals

Random Foods

Today I did better than yesterday, but not near as well as I need to be doing. But, Im going to try and get better everyday. I NEED to go to the grocery!!! I was out and about all day long...

Ham Sandwich
Goldfish (1 serving)
milk

coke

Egg Drop Soup
Fried Rice
Spinach with Cheese (weird I know, but they have it at a local chinese buffet)
diet coke

Luckily I only had small servings of things at the buffet and only covered one plate.

popcorn
coke
Went to see "Adventureland" and had a little popcorn. Not much at all.

Got home and decided I wanted a snack :
LOTS of water
Broccoli
mixed nuts (1 serving)

Okay, for real. Im gettin back on track.

Apparently eating right is even harder at home than at the dorm. Who knew??
My job at the movie theatre is definitely doing some damage. Movie theatre popcorn is one of the worst things you can eat and the soda fountain being available doesnt do me any good either. So, Im going to have to bring my own snacks and stuff to keep me from the evil popcorn.
Also, having a friend who gets me free papa johns is also terrible. Im going to have to not ask for any now, because pizza is one of my binge foods. =(
Anyway, I have to stop. I need to get a grip and blog all my food here. Even though virtually no one reads this, it makes me feel I am somewhat accountable.
Anyway, Im going to log all my foods and I need to go to trader joe's when i get my paycheck. The rents are pretty good with buying good foods, but there isnt enough. Anyway, more tomorrow...

trying to get back on track

So far today:

3/4 cup pasta shells
spaghetti sauce

can of coke (high in cals but Ive decided I would prefer calories over aspartame. I just need to limit myself)

grilled tilapia
peas

popcorn

cheez its (aka the devil)

Skinny Bitch

I bought skinny bitch today!! Im so excited to read it!

French Bread and Brie

1 bottle water

A few bites of salad with ranch

6inch sub on italian herbs and cheese
provalone and swiss
lettuce
a little light mayo

lays (AGAIN ugghhh)
diet coke

Wish exams were over...

I keep skipping breakfast due to sleeping in a ridiulous amount. =/

2:00 pm
Everything bagel with "I cant believe its not butter"
diet mountain dew

7:00 pm
turkey and swiss sand with wheat bread (about 3/4 of it)
Chips (ugh)
plain yogurt with granola.
diet mountain dew

6in italian herbs and cheese with provolone and american cheese
lettuce and a little light mayo
chips
diet pepsi

I had NO water today. I ran out of bottles. wtf

Better....

Considering I had two finals today I did okay. I usually eat during stressful times, but maybe i am breaking that habit?
I need to start counting my calories on here. I usually guesstimate in my head, but thats not really good enough.
I am really hoping that when exams are over and Im out of class I can eat better and be able to be more successful. I need to get out to trader joe's soon. I have been soooo broke, so that hasnt worked out. Anyway, Im hoping to get more involved with this shizz. I figure the more people I add on here, the more accountable i have to be. Anwyay, tomorrow I fully intend to count my cals and log everything. I will be writing my final paper though =/, so it may be late before I post anything.

baked potato with cheese and smart balance

oats and honey bar

Quiznos - salad with olives, Parmesan, and vinaigrette with pita thing

Went to the cyber cafe on campus later and got med fry and only ate 1/4 of it.

Came back and had some white cheddar popcorn.

Be Better

I think my weight is finally going back down. I just ate too many carbs in the course of two days.

Today (so far)

Sandwich
Doritos ( I need to go to the grocery, Im having to live off of my parents food, lol)
Caffeine free coke (Ugh. nothing else to drink)
Diet caffeine free mountain dew

Peanut Butter ( 1 1/2 tb)

chicken breast
green beans
rice

Sucking

These past few days have been hard. Too many heavy foods. Today I ate popcorn from work and that is terrible. our popcorn is the worst thing you can eat, lol. I guess I could hide behind the fact that its my bday and there has been a lot of eating out and whatnot. But, I need to hold myself accountable. Im gonna start logging my food again.

I kinda want to cry....

yesterday i did my weigh in and I was at 164.2. So i lost 2.8 lbs this past week.
Unfortunately, I weighed today and I was at 168.2. I am hoping it is because I ate some heavy foods last night (Pasta) and it was still "with" me. I ate pizza earlier ( bad idea) and so i did not lose any of it. Hopefully if I am good for a few days it will fall back off. Im really hoping its just heavy foods. idk

Update

I havent been eating badly lately, but I havent been doing great either. Hopefully I will have at least maintained this week when I weigh in.
Yesterday I was sick all day so I did pretty well then just because I was in pain lol.
Its my birthday week so I am going to try and make good decisions without compromising my progress.

Today

Cheese Puffs ( I always seem to eat these when at Chris's. Not a wise choice)

O'Charleys

House Salad
Potato soup
fries

I was generally disappointed in O'Charleys though. it just wasnt as good as usual. Thats probably because of what I ordered though

bleh...

today was not great but not horrible either.

small portion of spaghetti with marinara

Popcorn at work. BADDDD

caesar side salad
md fry (wendys)

And I drank regular coke...again. I need to stop that.

Saturday is my official weigh in day but.....

On Sunday I weighed 168.8 and today when I got home I got on the scale and I now am....
165.2!
Over three pounds is amazing for 4 days! Im so excited!

Blah blah...

Medium wheat sub with cheese at Quiznos
Lays potato chips
Diet Coke

Egg Drop soup
Coke

Sammich
chips (again gah)
pickless

Although I am not snacking much, the choices I am making are not great =/
I need to go to trader joes

Weird Food So far....

2:00 pm
Mountain Dew and Cheese puffs (Both bad choices. But, I was at Chris's and didnt have options lol)

4:00
Apple before class

7:00
Pretzels
diet mountain dew

9:00
vegetarian chilli ( had about a 1/2 cup, didnt like it too much)
weight watchers string cheese
diet mountain dew

11:30
kettle corn popcorn

Weigh in #1

I weighed in yesterday at 166.8
I knew it wouldnt be great because of the cheesecake factory and easter and honestly thought it would bump me up more than it did. I just need to get my ass in gear

Talking to No One...

Today was terrible. I ate Easter dinner and ate WAAAYYYY too much. i feel like I am going to throw up.
On a good note, the "easter bunny" brought me a really nice digital scale I have been wanting that measures body fat and hydration. =)
However, looking at the numbers after my dinner tonight kinda made me want to die...

More Suckage

Didnt bother tracking today. me and karissa went to the cheesecake factory with friends for our bday dinner. I know what I ate, but I also know it was REALLY fattening.

1:00
Coke from Sonic

4:00
Caesar Side salad
Fries (wendys)

8:00
Four Cheese Pasta
Water with lemon
low carb cheesecake with strawberries

Anyway, No biggie. Tomorrow is easter, so I plan to not track at all. Im just going to keep my portions in check =)

I Suck

Today i didnt track at all. I didnt go crazy but I had terrible food cravings all day. I swear quitting smoking is easier than this.

Last night I got really excited because i saw that my cafeteria was serving corn chowder, which is AMAZING!! Its only 53 cal per two cups so that got me even more psyched. However, the person I was going to go with bailed on me (boo Austin) so I just settled for cereal. I may go later though and get some =) yummm

honey bunches of oats with almonds ( 1 Cup)
1 Cup of skim milk

A bowl of weird vegetable soup at the dining hall
salad with cauliflower, broccoli and ranch

two soy chicken strips
White rice with veggies

Two graham crackers with peanut butter

So far....

Lunch

baked potato
2 teaspoons of "I cant believe its not butter"
diet mountain dew

Early Dinner (Which Wich)

Double Cheese Melt (Bad, I know)
Classic Lays( yeah...)
can of coke

So dinner didnt go so great, but I guess I can allot myself a couple bad meals a week as long as they arent HORRIBLE lol. The coke was a bad choice too but I was really craving one and it's the first one I have had all week. I <3 coke. its a problem. *shrug* I am also in need of water in my dorm. I just drank my last bottle this morning. So again, I have not fufuilled my water goal for the day. hopefully I will do better tomorrow. I may update this later, Im sure I will get hungry soon.

Back with MORE lol

I went to kroger earlier and bought skim milk, a veggie tray, fruit, salad, and no fat ranch dressing. I must say I was rather disappointed in the ranch dressing. its gross and tastes sweet. BLECH!!
Anyway I came back and made myself this:

Butter Lettuce with ranch ( only ate about 1/4 of it due to nasty ranch)
Broccoli florets
A few baby carrots
A little celery
strawberries and pineapple
It was a lot of food for the low amount of cals or ww points, So I think Im set for the night =)

Make fun all you want...

But I am transforming this blog into a weight loss thing. Lately I have really been getting into changing some of my bad lifestyle habits and the food I eat is one of them. Here I will be logging my food mostly every day (Obsessive I know, but it will keep be accountable) and just blogging about my efforts. Ive seen a lot of others who were successful do similar things and I thought I would give it a try. For the record I am technically doing weight watchers but am sort of off program right now. I am still watching what I eat, but not tracking points. =/ Not good, but Im working on it.

Today:

salad with broccoli, cauliflower, and ranch. (Cafeteria at school)
1 1/2 pieces of pizza (bad, but for some reason the dining hall had no food)
Diet Coke

Fruit Parfait (plain yogurt, granola)
diet mountain dew

Almonds and Walnuts (handful of each)

Banquet Frozen Dinner ( 280 cal)

I didnt do great on water consumption though. 2 bottles so far.

Understanding in a Car Crash....

Today I had to do one of the hardest things I have had to do so far in life. I had to let someone go. And as sad as I am to watch people destroy themselves and change into a different person, I know I helped them to the best of my advantage. I love my friends. I still love this person. I always will. Its unavoidable. No matter how angry, hurt , upset, or sad I am, I will always love this person. Because at one point she was a great friend. She was one of the best I had ever had. Unfortunately, that person is gone. I dont know who has taken their place, but it is NOT my best friend. I gave all I could. I tried to understand best I could. I even began acting as a doormat for about 1.5 seconds. I was willing to get over past problems. But finally, I just couldnt take it anymore. The lies, the secrets, the terrible things they had done to the people around me. They all piled up. For my own well being, I had to get out. I couldnt just sit around and be brought down too.
I have never cried in my life as much as I have this week. It sickens me. I thought this person would be a part of my life forever. They were like family. I would have taken a bullet for this person. Now, I dont think I'm really worth anything to them.
This person needs help. And Im not saying that in the bitchy way. Even though essentially, they are out of my life, I would be severely upset and distraught if something happened to them. I dont know at this point what they are capable of. I dont know when this will stop. All I know is I had to make it stop on my end. I couldnt take it any longer. I was about to fall apart myself.
I hope this person gets it together. I hope that they can make their life better. I've decided I am going to not wish ill things on anyone anymore, or at least try. I can honestly say that I dont wish bad things upon them. I just hope they find help. i hope for their own sake and for their remaining friends and family's sakes, that they will get better for them. They dont deserve it.
Honestly, it was the hardest thing Ive had to do, but one of the easiest and most obvious things to do. Im out. I cant take anymore. Ive been pushed too far. I just hope they can pick up their life and fix whats left.

My Almost Sort of Wreck

On my way home from Murfreesboro last night I was having a nice time jamming out to some Regina Spektor and having myself a nice little drive. (For you Tennesseeans, I was on I-40 , just before the Old Hickory Blvd. exit.) When all of this sudden in front of me I see this huge object. Since the object was dark and it was dark outside, I hardly had any time at all to slow down or move over. At first I though it might have been a big bag of trash. I looked over to my right and left and realized that I had no other choice but to run straight into this object. This object turned out to be a HUGE pile of bed frame accompanied by a metal rusty headboard with big scary spikes on it. When I ran into/over it, it sounded like I had run straight into another vehicle, the bang was so loud. I felt sure that I had messed up my front axel, torn the front of my car to pieces, or at least popped a tire. I called my dad and somewhat whimpered into the phone what had happened. (I was very upset seeing as I have never ever been in any kind of accident and I was afraid my car was royally screwed over) I got off at the Bellevue exit and pulled into Regal (my place of work, right off the interstate). I was excited and stunned at the same time that my car had no damage to the appearance of it. The only damage I have found so far is the guard under my front end is kinda messed up. Unfortunately my phone had died by this point so I went in and borrowed someone's inside. I called metro police and reported what happened and suggested they go get it out of the road. I was extremely lucky that things went well for me and am suprised someone did not get into a wreck because of it. Anyway, I drove home fine and did not notice anything wrong with the car. Dad is gonna check under the car tomorrow to make sure all is well there. Metro called me back and let me know that a couple other vehicles ran into the big pile of metal shit and that the guy who dropped it is willing to pay damages if there are any. Crazy Day...

Two posts in one day...

Im really trying to stop having faith in people. Im just trying really hard to be able to trust people. And I dont know how much longer I can. Its like the whole damn world is full of shitty people,myself included. Im also having a real hard time not being a drag and a complete "debbie downer". But I cant help that I just havent been myself lately. I cant help that Im stuck in this huge rut. Ive come to realize that I should not expect too much from people. My mom for some reason is the one that is constantly telling me that. "Dont expect much from people, and then you will be suprised when they do good things." But I cannot help but expect good things from people, especially the ones I love. Its just not in me to accept mediocre things. My frienships have always been very close and very cherished. That has just been the way my friends and I have exsisted together. I dont really have too many half ass friends. Its like an all in type of thing I guess. I guess I expect too much of the world. I dont know why Im writing this...

School and how I suck at it.

Today I am skipping my sociology class for the third week in a row. Its a 6 to 9 night class that I always dread. Actually, I have three 6 to 9 classes. Isnt that stupid?? Anyway, the professor talks in cirlces and never makes sense. I still dont even fully get the concept of Globalization. Because he gave about 400 different definitions for it! The only good things about this class are; 1.) he does not take attendace and 2.) Everything we do is online. I took my first test a couple weeks ago, not knowing anything about the damn subject and somehow managed to come out with an A. He posts all of his powerpoints and notes on the class website. The man is apparently begging us not to come to class. Basically, I could probably not go to this class all semester and pass with flying colors because we get to cheat on all of our tests. So why go? Some part of me is paranoid that if I dont go, I will miss something vital, but another is wanting to take advantage of the situation. Anyway, point is that I am not in class.

Every other class is going alright. My English prof is driving me crazy though. We turned in a paper almost two weeks ago and he said we would get the grade last week and it has still not been posted. In the meantime I am supposed to be writing a cause or effect essay and I have no idea where to begin. It would make me feel more confident writing this paper if I knew how well I did on the first!
Theatre is wonderful and I love it. The End.
And then there is Art class. Its pretty easy as well. Just really boring and loooooong. I took a test in that class yesterday and am pretty positive i made an A, so thats nice.

Anywho, Im pretty much over school already. Which is sad seeing as I will have to be in school for like a billion years if I want to get my PhD in Psych. Whatevs...

My First Post...

I guess this has been a long time coming. I've always liked the idea of blogging but never have had the time to make one. I usually have a lot to say, so I figure this is the best way to get it all out.
I guess I should start out with a little about myself. My name is Lindsey Brooke (Brooke). I recently graduated from Harpeth High, a high school in a small town in Tennessee. I never was a great student in high school, mainly because I lacked the motivation. In any case, I graduated and now am attending Middle Tennessee State University. I'm studying to be a clinical psychologist. I've always liked listening to people tell me about their problems, no matter how messed up they are. I live on campus with my best friend Rose.
While psychology is what I plan to do in my career, my true passion is theatre and singing. Singing is one of my only god given talents and I wish I had a better use for it other than in the car on long drives. Acting is something I have to work a little harder for , but I love it just the same. If I could chose one thing for my life it would be that I could act and sing and make a decent living. However, I know how rare this is, and am unwilling to sacrifice my standard of living to obtain it. I also love Literature. I love reading. I have since I was a small child. I also enjoy writing, but since becoming a college student it has become my worst enemy. I used to journal a lot but after my privacy has been betrayed a few times I have pretty much given up.

Im not quite sure yet what I have planned for this blog. I could use it as a way to chronicle my life, or it may just end up being my new way to vent. Who knows? Hopefully I will be posting another blog soon. Thanks for reading.